brendon urie, cut your hair! and put that guyliner back on!!!!
panic! just isn't panic! without the ! and the guyliner!!!!!!!!

you know it always just be me... (yes mr. urie, it will always just be you... and maybe a bit of pete wentz... :D)

i dyed my hair partially pink today. god, how i love this color! it's so awesome! ^^

we're goin' down, down in an earlier round
and sugar we're goin' down swingin...

T	Tame
I	Influential
A	Astounding

tss... i'm NOT tame!

K	Keen
I	Industrious
T	Twisted
T	Technological
Y	Yucky
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T	Temperamental
I	Important
A	Awesome

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YUCKY?!? well, maybe more in the sense of mean ;)


what if i say i'm not like the others??

BOO!!!

happy halloween to you all! mwahahahaaaaa!

[edit] okay, my perfect evening will consist of watching rob zombie's halloween! what would be better on a night like that? :D

well. i just quit my best friend. hurts. but i had to. there was no other option. unfortunately.

you need him. i could be him...
maybe he WILL find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

back from "home"-home. was there over the weekend. well, our first arabic-course was friday, totally great! the script, the whole language... its just soooo awesome! :) tomorrow it goes on, and i still have to learn the letters and some vocabulary... the letters in general arent that hard, but then all the additional characters which are placed over or under the consonants... and yeah, there are no real vowels. theyre just strokes or squiggles over/under the consonants... that will take some time until i can read fluently. and understand it, haha! so im still a bit afraid of how it all will turn out, but also hell of excited on continuing tomorrow :)
and exhausted. but im like that everytime lately, so thats nothing new ;)

maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

today our first seminar. god, so boring. but i'm a bit afraid, took a look into one of our books and it all looks REALLY complicated... already had to get our first stack of copies for this year, only 300 sheets, that not much *ahem*
first day is over and i'm already totally exhausted. and not that enthusiastic about everything anymore... :/

heute zu müde um auf englisch noch zu übersetzen... also heut nur für meine deutschsprächigen freunde ;)
also, bin jetzt umgezogen, eine weitaus größere stadt, aber irgendiwe auch ein bisschen creepy, vor allem das rausgehn wenns schon dunkel ist... weiß man ja nie was einen hier so erwartet, als armes schwaches junges ding *lach* wollte eigentlich grad mit meiner mitbewohnerin die nachbran begrüßen gehn, aber wir sind dann wohl doch zu feige... morgen folgt versuch nummer 2, vielleicht trauen wir uns ja da mal... wenn nicht werden wir sie wohl nie kennen lernen ;)
hab mich mittlerweile auch schon relativ gut eingelebt und -gerichtet, auch wenn alles halt n bisschen kahl war, ist halt studentenwohnheim... und küche und bad sind wirklich winzomat, 2 leute pasen da vielleicht mit quetschen rein... nächste woche gehts studium los, arbistik, ohjeohje... ne ganz neue sprache... well. ich werd demnächst ja wieder öfter posten, dann auch mal auf englisch wieder...

look forward to thursday (haha), i guess i'll be back then... i'm moving wednesday, then i have to catch up on all your stuff and post wednesday or thursday again... see y'all! :)

sorry i didn't post in such a long time... but my pc's broken. or better said, my motherboard. and i have no idea when i get a new one :( :(

stolen from roving_wolf ;)

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.6
Mind:	6.6
Body:	5.7
Spirit:	5.4
Friends/Family:	2.4
Love:	1.4
Finance:	2.3
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wow, i thought it would be worse...

thanks for all the comments lately. i love comments.

sunny, yesterday my life was filled with rain....

i just realized that i kinda fell back into old habits... hurting myself when the inner pressure or pain is too much... well... :(

you, you know how to get me so low
my heart had a crash when we spoke
i can't fix what you broke...

especially when someone you really truly love behaves like a total asshole. god, how can someone be so careless and reckless?! i was so angry, i boxed. until my knuckles hurt. like hell. they almost bled. but i dont care. as i said, love hurts. it really does.

...and i hate how much i love you
i cant stand how much i need you...

well, my lifes pretty unspectacular at the moment. but i didnt update in a long time, soo... was in spain at the begin of june, was pretty good there...

also graduated from high school, gotta apply for university now... thats kinda weird. i mean, schools over... i wanna study English and American studies, im sososo looking forward to it! *love*

i dont know, i have not much to write about at the moment, everythings normal, everythings kinda fine, unspectacular... maybe ill post some photos from the spain trip and my graduation prom, depends on how fast my inet is, that differs a lot lately ;)


[edit] oh yeah, yesterday my best friend left for the armed forces... and im slightly afraid that he or i will change during that 9 months... dont know how... i miss him :(

...it's time to be a big girl now
and big girls don't cry...

feels like almost everyone of my closest friends enjoys going on my nerves at the moment. im so close to going postal (yeah, i got that out of the dictionary ;) one more false remark and that's it. ARGH! if you got something to say, then fucking say it, and dont use that motherfucing ironic tone!!!!

wait a minute, wait a minute
i think i gotta take some time
and clear my mind
cos if i dont i might scream
scream out loud in a little bit

sorry. just had to get this out.

i should SO be studying for my fucking oral exam which is on wednesday, but i just can't concentrate. i have no idea why, i mean everything's kinda fine, isn't it?
had a nice weekend, met lots of people, some really nice ones, maybe some confusing ones, but all in all it should be fine! well. i have no idea. i guess i'm gonna fail that exam. but i don't really care. i'll just be so fucking lucky when it's finally over.

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming


...I'm scared.

well, i have two weeks off now. today was the first day. and god, i am soooooo bored! i even cleaned my room. usually, i only do this when i expect visitors! (or, when im really very bored.)
and i cant even spend time with friends so easily, because im living in german-nebraska! that sucks!

anyone an idea what i can do? please?

bring 'em out, bring 'em out! (the ideas ;)

kay, wrote my german exam yesterday. english exam the day before that. and i must say, it was pretty good. at least the themes, dunno what i made out of it... and though it was only yesterday, it seems so freaking far away... even unreal. i mean, god, ive wirtten my final exmas. when i wrote maths on monday, its gonna be it. oral exam in government on may 31st, but thats really it then. and that is... weird. i will miss my scholl. and my friends :( anywaaaay. its not over yet. its not over until its over. l-o-l.

concerning my ex-bff, its actually pretty good. lets hooope it stays this way...

so i, i wont be the one, be the one to leave this, in pieces
(i KNOW this doesnt really fit, but just gotta love LP... and M2M *mwaha*)

i must say, im pretty good at the moment. had my oral english exam on thursday, 20 out of 20 points. mwaha. was the best. am the best. no doubt about it. lol. ;)

my ex-bff decided to ignore me at the moment, dunno whats up with that, whats up with us in general, it differs a lot. but, at the moment, even that doesnt bother me. guess i changed when it comes to him.

so shut your mouth now big boy, im just myself not your toy, its in my nature to be changing!